I'm torn

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

With Allah's blessing, I managed to complete my 4 years of Master Degree.

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.

Last Friday (19 October 2012), my thesis was endorsed by University's Senate Members.

Currently, I'm working at Khalifah Institute (KI). Replacing a good friend's of mine, Huda Engku for a month as Training Excecutive. 

I really hope that she can focus on her study and finish her thesis soon. InshaAllah ;)

Alhamdulillah, I enjoy the work, environment and culture here.

I learned alot from people here.

I really heart them all.

Not only that, I was offered as manager at KI.

On the other hand, I got job interview from MIROS. Just before I finished my master, I applied at MIROS and got job interview at the place. I've been longing to work there since before I graduated from my master. The reason I want to work there is because I want to do research related to psychology of road users.

I'll be having my second interview this Wednesday.

 And now, I'm torn. Really. Seriously.

My parents really wants me to join MIROS.

However, deep down in my heart, I want to join KI.

Some people say that I might be bias because I'm currently already working here at KI.

With my less than a month working experience, I experienced a hectic work schedule, yet I feel satisfied and happy.

I think I've explained to my parents already my intention working here but I can sense that my parents are very concern about my job security and my pay at KI.

I would feel guilty towards my parents if I take the job offer at KI :'(

I pray that Allah make things easy for me. After all, I should be grateful to Allah for this musibah.

There are people struggling to get better job. Yet, they take whatever Allah gave them happily and wholeheartedly. 

I believe that Allah want me to be more firm with myself and become a more wiser person. InshaAllah!

p/s: Only Allah to turn to. Oh Allah, help and guide me, please! :'(