One of my dreams

is to play piano.

I really envy those people who are able to play piano fluently(?)

I used to play musical instruments back then in secondary school.

I didn't enjoy playing music at that time.

Simply because the teacher wasn't friendly and a bit pushy (I think so). Haha!

 But now, I feel like playing piano and guitar.

InshaAllah, 1 fine day I will learn how to play piano.

Enroll piano class, maybe?

;)

    

I'm torn

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

With Allah's blessing, I managed to complete my 4 years of Master Degree.

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.

Last Friday (19 October 2012), my thesis was endorsed by University's Senate Members.

Currently, I'm working at Khalifah Institute (KI). Replacing a good friend's of mine, Huda Engku for a month as Training Excecutive. 

I really hope that she can focus on her study and finish her thesis soon. InshaAllah ;)

Alhamdulillah, I enjoy the work, environment and culture here.

I learned alot from people here.

I really heart them all.

Not only that, I was offered as manager at KI.

On the other hand, I got job interview from MIROS. Just before I finished my master, I applied at MIROS and got job interview at the place. I've been longing to work there since before I graduated from my master. The reason I want to work there is because I want to do research related to psychology of road users.

I'll be having my second interview this Wednesday.

 And now, I'm torn. Really. Seriously.

My parents really wants me to join MIROS.

However, deep down in my heart, I want to join KI.

Some people say that I might be bias because I'm currently already working here at KI.

With my less than a month working experience, I experienced a hectic work schedule, yet I feel satisfied and happy.

I think I've explained to my parents already my intention working here but I can sense that my parents are very concern about my job security and my pay at KI.

I would feel guilty towards my parents if I take the job offer at KI :'(

I pray that Allah make things easy for me. After all, I should be grateful to Allah for this musibah.

There are people struggling to get better job. Yet, they take whatever Allah gave them happily and wholeheartedly. 

I believe that Allah want me to be more firm with myself and become a more wiser person. InshaAllah!

p/s: Only Allah to turn to. Oh Allah, help and guide me, please! :'(

 

   

       

Rasa sebak.. Allah!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Allahu Akhbar!

Tinggal 1 hari saja lagi untuk memasuki bulan Ramadhan, bulan penuh rahmat.

Entah kenapa rasa sebak pulak pagi - pagi ni.

Ditambah pulak dengan hujan renyai - renyai. 

Sebak menanti Ramadhan.

:'(

Frankly speaking, mun belum set goal spiritual dan pscyhological untuk bulan Ramadhan tahun ni.

Macam tahun - tahun lepas, ada ja KPI - KPI nya.

Argh, tak perlu bagi alasan mun.

Ambil masa 10 minit.

Set goal untuk Ramadhan tahun ni.

Allahumma Yassir wa la Tu'assir.

Aameen.

Anyway, insyaAllah bulan Ramadhan ni akan berkhidmat sepenuh masa di rumah sebagai House Manager.

Apa itu House Manager?

Menguruskan hal ehwal rumah la.

Dalam bahasa kasaqnya adalah pembantu rumah / helper.

Alkisahnya, bibik yang sedia ada di rumah dah dihantar balik disebabkan masalah - masalah kesihatan.

Rumah mun ada bibik semenjak tok mun tak sehat.

Tak ada kudrat yang muda untuk uruskan tok mun.

Yang muda belia semua pakat belajaq atau kerja jauh - jauh.

Mun lebih selesa untuk kemas - kemas rumah.

Ingat lagi dulu time sekolah, kalau dekat nak raya mun akan 'mengamuk'.

 Mengamuk mengemas, mengelap, membersihkan apa yang patut.

Itu memang tugas rasmi mun lah.

Bab masak memasak, buat kueh mueh tu mun tak campur sangat sebab banyak tangan - tangan yang lebih pro daripada mun. 

InsyaAllah, akan jalankan tugas ni sebaik mungkin.

Kepada semua umat Islam, Ramadhan Kareem.

Semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih baik daripada Ramadhan sebelum ini.

Allahumma balighna Ramadhan.

Aameen.

 

Hadiah.... lagi? ;)

Terima kasih daun keladi,

Tahun depan bagi lagi.

Hehe

Thanks Kak Siti, Kak Has, Haidzat dan lain - lain.

May Allah bless all of you.

BFF till Jannah.

;)

It's a date ;)

Alhamdulillah!

A few weeks ago, my beloved friend, Dhee told me that she won Maher Zain's contest.

The prize:

*drum roll*

Maher Zain's concert tickets for 2!

*wink*wink*

Guess what???

 I'll be the concert partner for Dhee.

Alhamdulillah 

Thank you Dhee for inviting!
May Allah bless you ;D.

Well, this Saturday is a date with Maher Zain ;)

 

Bersangka baik dengan Allah ;)

Allahu Akhbar

Dalam tahun ni, banyak sangat program - program ilmu berskala besar diadakan di Kuala Lumpur. Alhamdulillah, awal tahun ni saja, dah 2 majlis ilmu yang besar mun sertai. 
Pendekatan yang digunakan oleh penganjur - penganjur pun boleh tahan menarik jugak untuk mun sebagai pelajar. :).
Contohnya: Harga untuk pelajar, early bird, dan sebagainya.

Antara perkara - perkara yang timbul acap kali dengar program - program ilmu besar ni diadakan adalah yuran program.
Sebagai seorang pelajar yang bergantung harap kepada PaMa (baca: tajaan ibu bapa), agak segan nak mintak duit lebih untuk daftar program. 
Mun rasa kalau mun mintak sponsorship, insyaAllah dapat.
Cuma bila dah rasa diri ini tua (baca: 28), rasa segan Ya Robbi nak mintak duit untuk itu dan ini.


Tapi.....


Alhamdulillah, ada rezeki yang Allah bagi.
Mun percaya, kalau kita bulatkan hati untuk sesuatu benda yang baik, biiznillah Allah akan bagi.
Contoh semasa pendaftaran Konvensyen Bidadari Dunia bulan Februari hari tu, memang berfikir sana sini untuk cari duit lebih.
Allah itu Maha Perancang.
Dia lorongkan rezeki daripada jalan yang takkan pernah manusia sangkal.

Seminggu sebelum hari early bird tu luput, mun dapat 'kerja' kecil - kecilan. 
Alhamdulillah, dapat tolong kawan tanda kertas peperiksaan students beliau. 
Dapat tawaran bantu training.
So, apa kesimpulan cerita di atas?




Setiap apa kebaikan yang hendak kita lakukan, kita niatkan dalam hati supaya Allah tolong kita.
InsyaAllah, pertolongan Allah itu akan datang.
Kita hendaklah sentiasa bersangka baik dengan Allah.
Andai kita dah niat yang baik tapi turn out to be not so good as what we've planned, believe in ourself, Allah has better plan for us.




Ada lagi satu perkara yang mun fikirkan.
Sekarang ni ujian mun adalah duit. Yelah, jadi student manalah dapat income ribu raban. Kan?
Tapi nanti, InsyaAllah, bila dah kerja, ujian yang bakal mun hadapi adalah masa untuk hadiri program - program ilmu.
By that time, insyaAllah mun dah ada duit, tapi time tu I have other responsibilities (contohnya sewa rumah, duit kereta, dll). Right?

 Berbalik pada kesimpulan mun tadi:
Dalam apa jua keadaan, kita niatkan yang baik dan sentiasa bersangka baik dengan Allah.

InsyaAllah, itu yang terbaik. 
Wallahu 'alam 

 

Yes, I'm still struggling

to become a better Muslimah.

May Allah ease my path. 

Aameen

 

Surely, I will miss this garden one day ...

InsyaAllah, my thesis and masters journey will end soon.

Currently, I'm finalizing and correcting my thesis for examiners' evaluation.

I hope Allah soften the examiners' mind and heart while reading and evaluating my thesis.

After I submit the thesis, I have to wait for 1 month (InsyaAllah) to get their feedback.

In the meantime, I have agreed to help out the office where I used to volunteer as they need extra hands to handle for administrative work.

 After that, I will start hunting for jobs.

And surely, I will miss IIUM - Garden of Knowledge and Virtue

:')

 

 

 

 

p/s: Please pray that Allah ease my path towards becoming IIUM Masters Graduate. Aameen ;)

Bulatan Gembira

I watched this video during a seminar I attended last week with one of my best buddies, Athirah.

The committee member played it on the screen while waiting for speakers for forum to be at the stage.

This video really touches my heart.

I heart circles of happiness I had in my life.

I treasure them very much.

I have small circles, here and there. 

:')

All of them are my murabbis.

Thank you Allah for everything.

Really appreciate it. 

Hidup ini

bukan untuk dipuji tapi untuk diuji.

Banyak sungguh ujian lately. Terutama ujian nak siapkan thesis. 

Alhamdulillah, minggu lepas dah defend proposal di Kulliyyah.

Alhamdulillah, sikit saja pembetulan nak dibuat.

Dan sekarang tengah collect data for my thesis. 

Nak collect data pun ambik masa. Mun bajet dalam bulan 12 ni settlekan data collection.

Sekarang ni tinggal nak polish Chapter 1, 2 and 3. Bila dah key in semua data, baru boleh run analysis dan siapkan chapter 4 and 5.

Persoalannya  sekarang ni, mampu ke nak siapkan semua ni sebelum 15 JANUARI 2012?

T__________T

Ya Allah, berikanlah ku semangat, berikanlah aku kekuatan dalam menghadapi ujian-Mu ini. Ameen

Everything happens for HIKMAH

Middle of this year, I made a HUGE decision.

The decision took away almost half of my life.

It was painful back then.
Only Allah knows
Only Allah knows
Only Allah knows


what is the best for me.
Yes, I do believe in that.


It is difficult to get the rational/hikmah behind whatever that happens to you at that time, but, surely insyaAllah, eventually, Allah bestows you with the hikmah.
But you must be sabr
sabr and
sabr

And alhamdulillah, now I realized the hikmah.
Thank you Allah for this amazing experience and feeling.
Thank you Allah for the hardship.
:')




And I hope, whatever decision I make, Allah will guide me. Ameen...

You know what I did last mid sem break

when you see these pictures

1. Food

 From top: Sotong bakar, Nasi kenduri, Akok (Kelantanese pancake) and Steamboat.

2. Happy times

From top: Makan time, akad nikad time, family time

3. Allah's creation

Full moon and a star ;).
15 Zulhijjah 1432

4. Randomness

From top: Tammy in plastic bag, Tammy in a box, the famous and must-visit marker Pasar Siti Khadijah, Nordin Batik, Gedai Cendol sedap (KB), Kain & unique cats decoration

All pictures were taken in Kota Bharu, Kelatan.

Previously, I had this dream of living in Kelantan because i like the culture (kind of Islamic in nature, the warm citizen, the food) and I can always go Pantai Cahaya Bulan for beach therapy. Hehe

Somehow I changed my mine during my last visit as I underwent hard times with the Kelantanese drifters drivers and traffic. Stress okei! I don't want to be judgmental but in my point of view, these drivers are aggressive. It was stressful driving in Kota Bharu. Huh? But hey, no offense ya ore Kelate. It is just my assumption. okeh?

I might do research in Kelantan and examine the road user behaviours there. 

Hikhik... ;).

Overall, everything went well except all of us (my family members) fell sick. Oh ya, I am a 'supir' in Kota Bharu. Alhamdulillah, I managed to memorize the roads well. Thats you, I was appointed to be the supir most of the times. Hehe. I guess that's a gift from Allah to me. Thank you Allah.

Hmm.. thats all from me. Till my next post! 

Wassalam

p/s: Alhamdullilah. Thank you Allah for every single minutes in life; be it happiness, be it hardship.